Emlee

THINGS ON THURSDAY

LOVING:
Callum, as per usual, I cant help it the kids a keeper.
oranges
my new computer
sims 3
2 more weeks and we find out the sex of the baby.
I have pretty much finished my christmas shopping, for Callum and Bryce

LOATHING:
Family drama, on my side and Bryce's.
Callum's Dr refusing to refer him to a specialist
The urge to clean everything, every five minutes.
Arguments with Bryce over baby names.
Bryce hasnt even started his christmas shopping for me or Callum.
The rain.

LOOKING FORWARD TO:
My mini holiday in October.
knowing the sex of the baby.
Spring getting more springy less wintery.
Getting a new phone (blackberry or E71?)

MY BABY!

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That is all.

Do you remember your dreams?

I do remember most of my dreams, I have lots of reoccurring dreams to but the thing I wanted to talk about is what actually happens before I fall asleep.
At night, when I am in bed, I experience something very weird.
As soon as I start to fall asleep I am jerked awake but a weird sensation that I am shrinking or sometimes growing, either way I feel like its happening very rapidly, I know I cant feel it and it stops as soon as I open my eyes, but some nights (If I am really tired) I feel like the bed benethe me is swaying like I'm on a boat or rotating, which yes I have experienced before... Its called being too drunk to sleep, but this happens even when I'm not drinking. I dream almost every time this happens but I know I'm dreaming. Like a few nights ago, I was dreaming I was in an open house and I was going around trying to turn on all the lights so I could see better but none of them would turn on, then all of the sudden I said (I dont know if I said it outloud or just in my dream) "Oh I'm asleep" and then all of the sudden I jerked away (And it is a jerk, like on E.R when the doctors zap you with those paddle thingoes and your chest jumps off the table... thats kind of how I think it goes)
Does anyone else experience ANYTHING this?

AND ALL SEEMS TO BE GOING WELL

I had an ultrasound 2 weeks ago and it was wriggling about and had a heartbeat all its little organs were in the right spot and apparently I am at a low risk of the baby having down syndrome (I didnt ask, I dont think I'd care. Its routine for them to check now apparently)
Vomiting has stopped completely, still sometimes gag on my own saliva, but even this is happening less and less, I even managed to eat roast beef the other day (Sounds stupid but it was very exciting)
In other news Callum's 2nd birthday falls on next Sunday, the ninth of August. We wont be having a party for him as we had expected. My mother is ill, she was loading logs into the fireplace at her house inTumbarumba and her skirt caught on fire, she has 2nd and third degree burns on her legs and bottom. We find out today if she is getting transfered to a Sydney hospital to a burns unit who can take better care of her than that stupid hillbilly hospital she was in before (its a long story and I'll tell it when I have more energy)
My weekend with the boys in Sydney was awesome fun. Well until I wore a new pair of heals for the first time for like 8 hours straight walking around the Casino and the surrounding Sydney area and woke up with 4 inch blisters on the sole of each foot. But fear not fellow voxers because I packed flats to walk around Syndey in the next day, my goold ol' purple chuck taylors saved the day for me and I still got to go to all the attractions we planned to visit. With only minimal pain mind you! We took $550 between us to the casino and thanks to my winnings we went home that night with only $50 less. Which is pretty good considering I had one drink and Bryce had seven and they cost something like $75 all up and we gambled all night. At one point I only had $100 left in my purse and thought "Thats is we're broke" but I put $20 in a roulette table and pulled out $170! GO TEAM!
Mind you all the money we managed to save while in the casino we promptly spend the next day at the markets and the QVB. (Which incase you didnt know is a kind of posh shopping centre)
Anyway I have to vacuum my house! 

AT LEAST THE VOMITING HAS STOPPED

Yes thats right, the vomiting has stopped but not the gag reflex. I seem to still be feeling sick and I often have to run to the toilet, but instead of actually vomiting I stand over the toilet and dry-wretch, my mouth fills up with saliva and I feel like I am going to choke on it. This happens most when cooking meat, any meat really chicken, beef, fish, even pork. Random right?
I think this time I want a girl, but I am convinced its a boy. The same thing happened when I was pregnant with Callum, I wanted a boy but was convinced otherwise... my baby-dar is off apparently. I think I am going to breast feed this time. Just thought I'd tack that little over share on the end.
We went to the aquarium in Sydney last weekend, very exciting, Callum kept yelling out "FISHIE" every five minutes, very cute. We seen a massive crocodile in there too which was the highlight for Callum I think, he calls them "chocolatedocs" which is close enough for someone under two. He loved the sharks too, there was a man in the tunnel with us and he put his hand on the glass as a shark swam over and Callum tugged on the mans shorts and said very matter-of-factly, "dont touch cause he'd eat you." I liked the turtles the best, there was a massive sea turtle (like the ones in nemo) and it was fun to watch him kind of lazily swim about as if nothing really bothered him. Very chill. Callum calls them Tonkles. On the way out we let Callum pick a toy from the souvenir shop, a stuffed crocodile named "Choc"
Its freezing in Australia today (or at least in my part of it) both my knees hurt and my hip feels like its going to pop out, gotta love that arthritis dontcha?
In a fornight I am going to Sydney for 2 days, I hope its not this cold then cause I can see me spending alot of time in the hotel, while the boys go on their shenanigans alone. We're going to the markets, the IMAX theatre and to the casino to spend our tax returns. YAY!

OFFICIALLY ANYWAYS

Dr's appointment last week confirmed I was 6 and a half weeks pregnant and so now I am presuming we are on into the 7th.
Just a few quick things to update on.

I am starting to not feel so sick all of the time, its still happening periodically, like early mornings and if I forget to eat or something. Mood swings are intensifying. The slightest thing Callum or Bryce does at the moment can drive me nuts, I am trying not to take it out on them, especially not on Callum so I have been screaming into my pillow every so often the last few days. Also I went into a mild fit of hysteria today while watching Marley and Me, at the end when it gets sad, I couldnt stop crying. Slightly embarrasing. Cravings have taken on a creepy new twist...Pineapple juice with thickened cream, it kind of tastes like a pina colada without the alcohol and coconut juice. Has been ejected from my body numerous times after consumption, I like it, baby doesn't? So far no swelling of the feet or ankles but I am milking it and asking for foot rubs every few nights... dont tell Bryce they dont hurt... please. Cooking any meat is pretty much out of the question... the smell makes me gag, eating it sometimes makes me vomit also, so Bryce has been in charge of that department.
But other than that I have to say things are going pretty smoothly.
Oh.... except Bryce and I are fighting over whether or not to find out the sex of the child. I dont want to, I think it ruins the surprise a tad. When Callum was born and the Dr. announced 'Its a boy!' all I can remember thinking was 'Yeah I know'
Bryce and I both agree on the name Alexis-Monroe for a girl, and for a boy I cant decide between Luke or Logan. I think Bryce likes Luke better, but as far as I am concerned he has no choice. I didnt get a choice with Callum and the deal was I got to pick the next name (within reason... No Lucifer or Darius or something crazy weird uncommon) I will probably change my mind 500 times in the next say 8 months (God willing all goes well) but those are my choices for now.
I just wish I could fast forward get this yucky pregnant part over and have the damn thing (I shouldnt call it that should I?) baby already! Gorsh!

OH THE JOYS

Today I feel utterly crap... craptacular infact. I have vomited so many times I've lost count (ok its 5 times) I am so tired even though I have been awake less than 3 hours and I'm hungry but everything smells funny or tastes weird. Even chocolate has a weird metallic taste to it.
I know these are all apart of the whole baby-shenanigan thing, but I am only like 5 or 6 weeks pregnant and already I am over it. Like last night for example, I made a wonderful dinner, steak, baked potatoes and vegetables. I sat down at the dinner table to eat it and as soon as Bryce cut into that first piece of steak I had to vomit, the smell was so over whelming that I ended up eating my dinner (minus the steak) on the front porch while bryce and callum ate at the table.
I dont ever remember being this sick with Callum. Infact I dont think I was ever sick with Callum. Like period. Callum was such a good baby after the first few weeks of crazyness he settled down pretty good at home. And he slept through the nights pretty much straight away (well like from 6 months) I am worried that this baby (who is already being a little shit) will be one of those crazy babies who scream all night and stuff.
Oh god help me, what have I gotten myself into?

BUT I AM BACK AND I HAVE SOME BIG NEWS

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 Two lines I think we all know what that means right?!

Yes thats right Ya'll I am up the duff again. Bryce and I are thrilled to announce that we are expecting a new addition, we only found out last friday so its early days as of yet, but I guestimate I would be about 5 weeks into it. I am going to the doctors on Wednesday to find out officially how far along I am, but the Doc tells me that going on the date of my last period I am due *drum roll* ON MY BIRTHDAY! February 5th. How crazy is that, apparently its like a-jazillion to one type situation but all I can keep thinking is, I must have had sex on the same day as my parents did 23 years ago.... and its grossing me out... lol.
So far things are pretty much going as one might expect, I vomit alot, I have already started craving which my doctor says is unusual this early, but its one of the reasons I started to suspect this. I was eating like a kilo of mandarins a day. But I am craving other things too... smoked muscles, these disgusting mamee noodles I loved when I was a kid and mashed potatoes all hours of the day and night.
I dont care if its a boy or a girl. But I had a dream that me and mum were discussing it and all of the sudden my stomach was like a clear bubble and we could see inside and it was a boy... whether this has any basis in truth or not I dont know but my nonna used to say that a mother (if shes any kind of good mother) has an instinct.
I'll post more on it later.... Wish us luck.